The Past Two Weeks

One week ago today my Grandmother Shipton passed away. (July 31, 2012)  She had battled 3 different bouts of cancer as well as diabetes for the past 18 years.  She suffered stage 4 lymphoma, diabetes and congestive heart failure at the time of her passing.  I received the call about 5 days before her passing that she would probably not make it another week due to the congestive heart failure. I was not able to see her in her final moments which is probably a blessing for what she suffered.  She knew her role in this life and I cannot but recall the words of The Family a Proclamation to The World on a mothers duties "Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their children".  I had the opportunity to live with my Grandparents in Vernal Utah on a couple of my off tracks from BYUI.  She will be greatly missed.  I was able to attended her funeral this last Saturday, August 4th. 

On the day I found out my grandma would soon pass I started looking at plane tickets as soon as I got home.  Danny got home from work shortly after.  I went into the bedroom and was crying about grandma when he said "So.. I got an email today..."  I looked at him but couldn't see his face! My glasses were off because I was crying.  Then- he told me he was on the list to deploy at the beginning of the year.  I never imagined reacting as I did, I was already really upset about my grandmother.  Not being able to see his face when he told me the news still bothers me.  Anyway, I am not sure what i'll do yet.  We don't have many details at this time.  What we do "know" is Feb- March, 6-7 months, most likely Afganistan.  Errrrr sigh. Anyway that's what's been going down.  I started my new job Monday and had just come home on a red eye flight Sunday.  Stressed yet?

Intimacy=Shoes?

Ok, it's about time I get up on my soap box and have a little rant.  I just need to get it out of my system!




 Now that i'm up on my soap box lets go.


There's this kid at work who likes to push my buttons.  He's always trying to convince me of things.... I'm not sure if he actually believes what he's trying to convince me of or if he just enjoys some argumentative discussion.  One way or another... I can't remember how or in what context but he found out that  I didn't give away the cookie before marriage.
As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (Mormon) we believe that intimacy- using the powers of procreation; is reserved for men and women bound in marriage.  Thus, I kept my cookies in the jar! Anyway, after he found that out he shook his head and said "Megan Megan Megan, how can you do that? It's like buying shoes, you gotta try em on before you buy em. How will you know what you like? What if you don't like them and you can't do anything about it?"

  Now, this isn't the first time I have heard the Sex is like Shoes thing. I think its crap people. IF I were to reduce something as sacred, intimate, holy and private as sexual intimacy to something as gross, plain, useful but as ordinary, as trying on a pairs of shoes until you find the perfect fit, the analogy still wouldn't work in my mind.  Here's why.



                          
Here is the pair of shoes I didn't want to be.  If every person that came along tried on these shoes, even for a night how would they look? Feel? Smell? How many disgusting unknown fungus's would they have from any given wearer?  So, IF i were to reduce intimacy to something as casual as trying on sneakers I wouldn't want to be or have these ones! I'd want something like this....
 

Brand new, sparkling white, strait out of the box, crisp clean, new sneakers.  As I said, I think this analogy is stupid.  But, if you're going to play it like that... here's an image for you.  I wanted to give my sweetheart brand new, crisp, clean sneakers.

Stepping down. 

Goodbye JJ's

 

Hey everyone! I gave my 2 weeks notice today for Jimmy Johns because...

I GOT A JOB! Yaaaay!!!! I got the Head Start teaching position :D it pays like 3.15 more an hour and I am so happy! I figured out how much money i'll be bringing in every month and neither of us can believe we will have that much more income.  Anyway- more on that coming soon. 

Employment Update/Schooling

I have left a few messages with the HR woman at Head Start this week.  No luck! Tomorrow will be a week since in terviewe4d with them and the job I want the most from USAJOBS just closed a couple of days ago.  I haven't heard ANYTHING from ANY of the positions I applied for through USAJOBS... :(  Someone told me this may be a good sign as their hiring process is very long and you hear sooner if you're weeded out that you don't have a shot where the people who are still in the running may not hear for a while.  I don't know. ..maybe they were just trying to make me feel better.  I should really start looking for more teaching positions or paraprofessional positions before school starts.  People just don't return your messages or respond to things here. It's really frustrating.  So today at JJ I began bread cutting! That's right folks I am now allowed to slice a piece of french bread and put mayo on it.  I was congratulated on my efforts and told I may soon get a raise once i had that mastered.  GO ME lol.  Funny thing is.... I get really really nervous there sometimes.  Especially if people are watching me or I can tell they don't like me.  Or- starting something new.  Today was all three and I was a mess.  The reason I am able to do the leader job is because I know the sandwiches well.  But I forgot everything when I was trying to do bread cutter! Hopefully I will relax soon, get nice and fast at mayoing that bread without a single dry bite and GET THAT RAISE!!
 
      On another note, Danny has been looking into schools to get his bachelors  He will most likely do something computer related for his bachelors (he has an associates in automotive but not much transfers over) and then get a masters in something intelligence related.  I couldn't believe it didn't matter what his bachelors was in to go into a masters in intelligence! Just as long as he HAS one.  So I started poking around online and what I could do at the masters level with my degree a degree.  Nothing really caught my eye and I know Danny's education is priority right now.  I felt impressed to pursue speech pathology.  But that prompting was so long ago and so much has changed and no opportunity has really presented itself for funding because it would require makeup courses equivalent to a second bachelors.  I still wanted to put with everything that has gone on in my life in the last two years it went on the back burner.  I was beginning to wonder if it was still the path I should choose and if so WHEN?  Today I had the first confirmed to me.  A woman came into the shop today who was very quiet.  She did not respond to our greetings, or a co workers attempt to answer any questions.  She studied the menu for a very long time.  Finally she made a motion that indicated she needed something to write with and on.  My manager was at the register ( was cutting bread yay).  She was writing questions and my manager kept responding verbally to everything she tried to ask/find out.  Finally I stepped in and wrote down the answer she was seeking and motioned towards each item I had listed.  Understanding lit her face, I gave her a thumbs up, she nodded and then I made her sandwich.  Again, I felt the impression that I need to pursue speech pathology.  Some who seek such services may be partially def.  Although this is not related to the deaf specifically like deaf education or learning to sign I had that impression.  Anyway, I'm not sure when I will be able to do this or what life will bring but I just wanted to share my thoughts. 

Four Months Four Roses

Yesterday was our four month anniversary!  I had to work so Danny stayed home and cleaned, did all of the laundry and organized my closet! (Thank you sweetie xoxo!)  On our wedding night we were starving after the reception and grabbed some Wendy's on our way to the wedding night suite.  We ate french fries and sipped sparkling cider in a gorgeous room my aunt and uncle had paid for (thank you so much!). We thought it might be fun to have that for dinner again so I found some sparkling cinder at Target and we got Wendy's.  My sweetheart had a surprise for me after dinner! Four lovely red roses to represent our four months and chocolate :)

My New Blog- Mom's Kitchen

Hey everyone!

  I am starting another blog of recipes! Check it out! :) http://megisms-momskitchen.blogspot.com/

Would You Jehovah

Would You Jehovah

Would I know you? If you called my name?

Would you, my God, withdraw in shame?

For a daughter not knowing her masters voice?

Would I have lived to make the right choice?

Would my time on earth have been spent well?

Would my heart have changed from the day I fell?

Would the blood spilt for me have been worth or not?

Would the soul it purchased be worth being bought?

If I knew you and cried, kissing your feet

Praying in love that we would one day meet

Would you let me thrust my hand into your side

And see your Godly face, free of man’s pride?

Would you tell me the stories of your walk on land?

Would you let me feel the nail prints in your hand?

Would you present me to the father with joy and pride?

Glad to have me seated on your right side?

Where I could give glory forever more

To you, Jehovah, whom I adore

Megan Nichole Shipton